Born This Way

Im on the right track baby i was born this way.


Haha. Long time no post(?) lol. Yeeeeah. Haven't posted anything in a long time. I guess its casue nothing has really happened. Well, ive been having that feeling again. That loneliness feeling. It sucks, but im not desperate. I can wait 'till they come to me. :P

Well, Valentines day is almost here and im single! D: what a total downer. :P Eh, who cares.

"Some women choose to follow men, and some women choose to follow their dreams. If you're wondering which way to go, remember that your career will never wake up and tell you that it doesn't love you anymore."
— Lady Gaga

Just a post to show that I'm still alive. :P

Drama, Drama, Drama!

So... I love music... That is all. Jk. I really don't know what to write in this post but I feel like I haven't done anything in a while. Maybe I should tell you about the drama that's been happening to me since band camp ended (1 week before school started). It's a bit of a long story so please bear with me. // okay so I was talking to this guy(T). Everything was going fine until I found out that he was talking to me and one of my very close friends (K). K didn't know that I was talking to T too. I let them talk and yada yada... Well later I found out that the guy I used to talk to (S) was talking to this other guy (E). When I found out I told K and K was mad because he had found out that S was messing around with T. So K told E and made S and E break up. So now K and E hate S and T. S and T are now dating. My problem is that they all want me to choose a side! D:

The Next DM

So. I've been thinking about next year. Who will take the Drum Major's spot? Me. (hopefully) i really really REALLY want to be Drum Major!! I already know how to conduct so I'm pretty much ahead of everyone else trying out. Also our marching show got 6th in state :( we dropped 4 places since two years ago. I was really disappointed ): oh well. This just means that we are going to have to push the incoming freshmen a lot harder than we were pushed. I feel bad for them because I know I am going to be one of the, if not, the bitchiest Squad leader (or Drum Major) you will probably ever meet. :D haha // so yeah not too much going on in my love life right now. Currently single and loving it(: // happy thanksgiving to everyone!!

Buh bye,
SeeJay<3

Friend Edit.

We can't blame others for when love dwindles away. For we knew from the start it never promised to stay. It's just one of those things where the stakes are high. Sometimes Its forever, and sometimes Its good-bye. When you love the right way, you will never lose- no matter what path life may force you to choose. You may end up with tears or a broken heart, but you knew what you signed up for from the start. You can only give what you've got to give and if thats not enough, then you must continue to live. Life will go on and broken hearts will heal. You must continue on your quest, for thats the deal. Throw your heart into life and never stall. For the greatest risk is to risk nothing at all. You see, love is the only thing that we know, that can be divided and divided but continue to grow. And life isn't long enough to lock away our heart, just because life may have forced two people apart. We will continue to love and continue to lose, we will continue to pick and continue to choose. And then one day we will just risk it all, take the chains off our hearts and dismantle the wall. The last time we love will be the FOREVER, and never again will our hearts be forced to suffer. We'll never have doubts that it'll go away, because this time, itll be here to stay. But until then we must endure all the pain, for we only see sunshine if we can wait through the rain.

You And I

I love Lady Gaga's Song "You and I". It's so beautiful!! :'D // Yesterday was our Band Pigskin Jubilee. :) We got a 1st division! I was sooo happy. We were the first band to perform in 3A. :) I cried tears of joy when they announced, "*** ***** High School.... Division....1!" :D ahhhhhh!!! :) yayy us!!! Now this saturday we will have our Area Competition. And hopefully after that we will go to state. :) I love band!!<3

10-15-5<3

Soooo.....there's this boy...and he kinda stole my heart. He's sweet. We've been together for about 2 weeks or so. We haven't kissed, or done anything. I was supposed to go to the movies with him today, but I have band practice today and tomorrow. :/ Anyways...his name is 10-15-5 lol I can't say his name but these #'s spell it out. XD

New Blog, New Me

I'm back. lol. My life has changed so much. I have chosen that I will not be doing any of the stuff i used to do. I've worked too hard in my life and I'm not gonna throw it away. Well, overall short post. Just wanna say that, T-Man, if you're reading this, I took your advice to heart. I looked back at all my posts and I felt like the biggest dumbass. The only people who truly matter in life are friends(and family), and i was too dumb to see that my friends, you guys, were trying to help me. Thank you all! I LOVE YOU!!!